Friday, February 19, 2010

In love with the wrong guy.

Love is the most deepest word that weigh heavy meaning. We often use the word LOVE to our family, friends, to our boyfriend or girlfriend, to God, to everyone. Actually, LOVE is the ultimate beginning and end why we live and survive, why we are here in this world and why we still striving to go on with life. There are various reasons and degree in depths why people love, such for example, the initiate boy-girl relationship. Probably, that is what makes the world go round.

Frankly, I have been totally in love ("Obsessed" as what my friends say). I know we were not fit right from the start. Probably, he is wrong for me. But I'm waiting for a miracle that sudden positive change may forever take place. It is just I'm in the softer side, accumulating all the worst in him for miracle to happen. All the understanding, all the patience, all the love, pause my love not because I know that he needs me to direct his life. I do love him. We love each other. But time comes that I'm already tired. I'm tired of being always on the softer side. I'm tired of his vices, his bragging disbelief, his false promises. I'm totally tired.

That is why, I'm awaken to my senses. I'm awaken from the reality of prolong silence and sleep from the truth. I'm opening wide my eyes and focusing my mind to swallow my "undying love" for him. For long years, we love each other but I come up with a decision. It's totally over!

The best life's lesson that holds me now is this nourishing words which my friend shared me. It says:

"People have different outlooks in love. But whatever those are, there's only a single truth behind everyone's heartache: Love hurts when God knows you deserve someone else."

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