Lamp and Me

Striking my pen to make stroke of letters and words, I express my written composition with only the lamp and me.

There is not light. The room is dark if there's no lighted lamp. My sisters are already fast asleep. I am just sitting near the chair where I placed the lamp above it.

I could already feel the atmosphere is in great jubilant and celebration of Christmas. Firecrackers loudly sounded like a BIG BANG, radio sounded live and to-the-groove music, children are happily and excitedly chatting, plates are sounding like inviting someone to eat and gobbly dine, smiles scattered everywhere.

But me, the lighted lamp, my two sisters in the solitary room were presently living here. It feels like it's not Christmas. No delicious food on the table, the world is shouting with jubilant but here we are taking this day like one of those ordinary days.

We finish our prayer. We are hoping that this Christmas, though how tranquil we are, bounteous blessings from God is always what we pray.

Do-it-myself Plumbing Job

I do little plumbing job today. Our faucet is having a leak. It's handle has been destroyed which resulted to fast dripping of water. I don't have any other immediate concern except to do the little repair.

Indeed, I was wrong, The faucet needs to be replaced. It takes a lot of job. Instead of mastering enough confidence to do the job I can't resist but called the expert plumber near our state. Luckily, just within 10 minutes, he arrived bringing with him his complete plumbing tools.

I thought plumbing problems are just so easy. After all the water rushly flowing without pause, I was almost trembling in fear. Furthermore, our faucet retires its services. It has been almost 7 years of doing its job. Well, it retires. It needs to be replaced after all.

Now, I'm feeling okay. What I've learned this day is "Never gain much confidence especially when you can't afford to do the task by yourself."

Of course, I initiatively do it by myself because everything for the sake not to spend much is indeed a huge expense.

At least, it's okay and we are all okay now as well!

Women's Worth

I don't feel okay today. I was visited by my period. The first day is actually fast. The blood flowly runs fast. In fact, it is my third time now that I changed napkins this day.

There aer lots of things that women carry about. Just like these natural occurences of every woman's life - menstruation, pregnancy and even serious internal diseases are not an exemption. Women are prone to internal defection and most are victim of cancer.

That is why, I always take good care of my body and health. Times like these that me going through menstruation is inevitably unavoidable. I suffer too much pain. Whatever I do to alleviate the endless pain, there is nothing I can do instead to take the scruciating pain.

Indeed, it is not easy to be a woman. There are numerous roles and responsibilities that a woman possess. She is a child, a daughter, a wife, a mother to her children and being in such a position is worth an essence of everyone's life.

I don't know why I often feel like recalling the worth of a woman especially in times when I'm experiencing monthly menstruation.

About the movie, "My Best Friend's Wedding"

I don't know what to write except that I need to have this written after all. It's just that I'm looking for words to say but I can't hardly say a word. Probably, I'm much affected of the film which I viewed yesterday evening. Julliane (Julia Roberts) feel in love with is bestfriend the day he (Dermont Mulroney) decided to marry someone (Cameron Diaz) else. It has been 39 years that Jullianne hold her feeling about her bestfriend for the fact that her bestfriend after months of travel will come back building both the love they once knew. But it is the other way of story around.

Julliane's immediate bestfriend (Rupert Everett) is her shining armour in her time of great need as she preferred to be ruthless to get the man of his dream before the day of the wedding.

The feeling broke into a real truth of awareness for Michael O'Neal (Dermont Mulroney) while Julliane for the first time broke her silence, expressing what she really feeld for Michael. But it's too late, the wedding is unstoppable. Michael chased Kimmy (Cameron Diaz), Julliane chased Michael, nobody chases Julianne.

No matter how I prefer, wanting the story of defending on Julianne's side but it all ends us as "My Best Friend's Wedding".

Actually, I was moved and touched by this realistic film which resulted me crying.
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Remembering Mama this Christmas

I cried yesterday because I miss Mama. This year's Christmas Day is the 5th year that she is not with us. We never have delicious food on the table and parties to celebrate. There are no more Christmas songs to sing and gifts to receive. There are no more greetings and carolling.

Christmas should be full of fun and excitement. Way back before when my mother is still here with us, she serves us with our favorite food like Spaghetti, "Adobo", Christmas Ham, fruit salad, cakes and pastries, chicken curry, beef steak, juice and many more. She turns on the radio and plays Christmas songs. She sings from the top of her voice as she cooks all our favorite food. She surprisingly gives us gifts as midnight of December comes. It was like the whole month of partying in our house when mother is still alive.

This day, I can feel that Christmas is really near. I don't know if my sister's and I will enjoy or Christmas will just make us cry.

How wonderful if Mama is still here. I miss her everyday especially during Christmas day.

Strumming the guitar.

Music has been a part of my life. In fact, I can't live a day without music. Eversince, I was a kid, my mother raised me, following the footstep of her much gusto with music. As a matter of fact, she's my guru and I'm her apprentice.

I can aptly know how to sing and to play the musical instruments like the piano and the guitar. I have also experienced joining the numerous singing contests form varied venues here in our place.

I was only 3 that my mother discovered my precious talent. She helps me develop and enhance them.

In countless amateur singing contests that I've joined, I win most but I also tasted the feeling of losing. I even cried a lot but mostly I smiled often especially when I win. The cash that I earned from winning the contest serves as a help especially for our meal for the day.

Music travels some positive avenues for my life. I never fear to face people for I have gain lots of confidence. I am determine to pursue what I want. I have the courage to practice even more and to have patience in achieving what I want to reach. In totality, music boosts my interest and disciplines me to face life's challenges with focus and willingness. And all these I owe a lot from my mother who is God's gift for me.

Indeed, my mother has helped a lot of my growth and development. My progress extends its height until now.

But not all tides end up happily. I lose my talents when my mother died. I never care practicing and joining the contest as well. But my perseverance to move on striving is still within me.

My mother's love for me and the way she leads my life into notes of hymns, songs and music paves my way to know the real me.

Now, I rarely sing in public but I do often sing for mother in my heart.