Depressed of becoming fat.

It is such a depressing feeling that a person judge me as obese. He said that I look like a mother who already gone through pregnancy and labor. I don't know how anyone would feel my side.

I am single and have not been touch. Because of my work, I eat a lot. I am a freelance writer. I write and write, read and research always. This is not an easy task and thus, every time I loss energy, I boisterously eat and eat. My mind is always at work. As a result, if I don't eat a lot, I feel like good, appropriate words and ideas will not come out. Thus, I fuel myself with lots of food to sustain me and my brain. Plus, my work requires weight because I don't have enough strength to exercise.

I am aware of myself. I am totally aware that I'm becoming fat. But I do make ways to tone my body down. I will surely do it. That is my mission this year!

My written poem - "Hoping"

I am falling in love to a friend that he didn't know. Because of my too much feeling of love, I write this poem personally. It is entitled, "Hoping".

Everytime I encouner faces,
A glimpse of true love resembles,
Everything perfectly flourishing,
This love seem unending.

The eyes both meet,
Your stare is hoping,
My true love creates,
To you I'm liking.

How wonderful to dwell,
This mind always thinking,
How great to spell,
Love both sharing.

I do love you,
Me, just hoping,
I do care for you,
Me, never revealing.

How beautiful to live,
If the reason is you,
How blessed to love,
If I share it with you.

This hopeful soul,
Always wishing,
You don't know,
You, I'm loving.

Just hoping...
Just wishing...
I'm loving...
And saying..."I love you so!"

Being a freelancer.

There are lots of things that I want to say but I couldn't find the right words. Anyway, I am having a huge research of the thesis which I pass to my client. Being a freelance writer is such a tasking job but it is what I love and like. There are more words that I need to grasp and I love the idea of coming it all to me. It feels like it floats soundly well and come in the rush of time. I can be able to write many and in fact, express something that adds up to what I want to appear in my composition.

Lamp and Me

Striking my pen to make stroke of letters and words, I express my written composition with only the lamp and me.

There is not light. The room is dark if there's no lighted lamp. My sisters are already fast asleep. I am just sitting near the chair where I placed the lamp above it.

I could already feel the atmosphere is in great jubilant and celebration of Christmas. Firecrackers loudly sounded like a BIG BANG, radio sounded live and to-the-groove music, children are happily and excitedly chatting, plates are sounding like inviting someone to eat and gobbly dine, smiles scattered everywhere.

But me, the lighted lamp, my two sisters in the solitary room were presently living here. It feels like it's not Christmas. No delicious food on the table, the world is shouting with jubilant but here we are taking this day like one of those ordinary days.

We finish our prayer. We are hoping that this Christmas, though how tranquil we are, bounteous blessings from God is always what we pray.

Do-it-myself Plumbing Job

I do little plumbing job today. Our faucet is having a leak. It's handle has been destroyed which resulted to fast dripping of water. I don't have any other immediate concern except to do the little repair.

Indeed, I was wrong, The faucet needs to be replaced. It takes a lot of job. Instead of mastering enough confidence to do the job I can't resist but called the expert plumber near our state. Luckily, just within 10 minutes, he arrived bringing with him his complete plumbing tools.

I thought plumbing problems are just so easy. After all the water rushly flowing without pause, I was almost trembling in fear. Furthermore, our faucet retires its services. It has been almost 7 years of doing its job. Well, it retires. It needs to be replaced after all.

Now, I'm feeling okay. What I've learned this day is "Never gain much confidence especially when you can't afford to do the task by yourself."

Of course, I initiatively do it by myself because everything for the sake not to spend much is indeed a huge expense.

At least, it's okay and we are all okay now as well!

Women's Worth

I don't feel okay today. I was visited by my period. The first day is actually fast. The blood flowly runs fast. In fact, it is my third time now that I changed napkins this day.

There aer lots of things that women carry about. Just like these natural occurences of every woman's life - menstruation, pregnancy and even serious internal diseases are not an exemption. Women are prone to internal defection and most are victim of cancer.

That is why, I always take good care of my body and health. Times like these that me going through menstruation is inevitably unavoidable. I suffer too much pain. Whatever I do to alleviate the endless pain, there is nothing I can do instead to take the scruciating pain.

Indeed, it is not easy to be a woman. There are numerous roles and responsibilities that a woman possess. She is a child, a daughter, a wife, a mother to her children and being in such a position is worth an essence of everyone's life.

I don't know why I often feel like recalling the worth of a woman especially in times when I'm experiencing monthly menstruation.

About the movie, "My Best Friend's Wedding"

I don't know what to write except that I need to have this written after all. It's just that I'm looking for words to say but I can't hardly say a word. Probably, I'm much affected of the film which I viewed yesterday evening. Julliane (Julia Roberts) feel in love with is bestfriend the day he (Dermont Mulroney) decided to marry someone (Cameron Diaz) else. It has been 39 years that Jullianne hold her feeling about her bestfriend for the fact that her bestfriend after months of travel will come back building both the love they once knew. But it is the other way of story around.

Julliane's immediate bestfriend (Rupert Everett) is her shining armour in her time of great need as she preferred to be ruthless to get the man of his dream before the day of the wedding.

The feeling broke into a real truth of awareness for Michael O'Neal (Dermont Mulroney) while Julliane for the first time broke her silence, expressing what she really feeld for Michael. But it's too late, the wedding is unstoppable. Michael chased Kimmy (Cameron Diaz), Julliane chased Michael, nobody chases Julianne.

No matter how I prefer, wanting the story of defending on Julianne's side but it all ends us as "My Best Friend's Wedding".

Actually, I was moved and touched by this realistic film which resulted me crying.
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