Give Thanks to God.

Give thanks to the Lord, call on His name; make known among the nations what He has done.

-1 Chronicles 16:8

Thanking God is what most people should do at all times. Thanking Him not just in times that we are abundantly blessed but thanking Him even in trying times.

It is a fact that we oftentimes extend and say our gratitude to God only in times that we are especially in the fullness of our happiness because we feel the presence of God in us is dominant only on those pleasant times. But what a great misconception. God is with us even in times of our extreme difficulties and tests. We may not feel His presence in the midst of our struggles because we tend to feel that the Lord is not with us, that we are facing the hardship alone but we are perfectly mistaken. He even lifts us in getting things done for us in order to survive and to face the test.

It is quite queer why we only give thanks to God in our happy state of living. Why we are not proud proclaiming His greatness at all times, on things that He has done for us.

We feel the extreme pain in life and through whatever, we should always give thanks to God.

When stumble, no frowns.

Life doesn't assured constant happiness. We stumble many times. Sometimes the weight from your fall would make us tremendously discourage and hopeless. But there is a sure way that make us hopeful. Life isn't always unhappy. We smile. We learn. In fact, there are lots of things in life that we need to be grateful for/of. These two shall pass. Problems are not static. They are not constant. They are not forever present in a man's life.

That is why, there is no reason to be unhappy. There is no time to let problems win. Next time when you stumble, no frowns.

God saves everyone.

Visibly knowing the status of my sister who suffer a deep health problem, conditions me that life is like this. It is her endless medication which leaves me worrying all the time.

Life is very tough for all those persons whose member in the family suffers much pain on health. Frankly, my heart cries in deep sorrow and mercy every time I look at her taking daily high dosage of medicine. The side effects are what I worry about. But there is no other Person whom I cling my faith to. I put that worrying to God. God really doesn't want anyone to suffer and He knows how much I struggle. I leave it all to Him.

At all times, I gather much strength from Him. I am ready and strong to face my fears and problems because I know God will never leave me along with this. We are one in this.

If there is no way out, chances are God will always save us. He will always catch me. I know He surely does and He will.

In love with the wrong guy.

Love is the most deepest word that weigh heavy meaning. We often use the word LOVE to our family, friends, to our boyfriend or girlfriend, to God, to everyone. Actually, LOVE is the ultimate beginning and end why we live and survive, why we are here in this world and why we still striving to go on with life. There are various reasons and degree in depths why people love, such for example, the initiate boy-girl relationship. Probably, that is what makes the world go round.

Frankly, I have been totally in love ("Obsessed" as what my friends say). I know we were not fit right from the start. Probably, he is wrong for me. But I'm waiting for a miracle that sudden positive change may forever take place. It is just I'm in the softer side, accumulating all the worst in him for miracle to happen. All the understanding, all the patience, all the love, pause my love not because I know that he needs me to direct his life. I do love him. We love each other. But time comes that I'm already tired. I'm tired of being always on the softer side. I'm tired of his vices, his bragging disbelief, his false promises. I'm totally tired.

That is why, I'm awaken to my senses. I'm awaken from the reality of prolong silence and sleep from the truth. I'm opening wide my eyes and focusing my mind to swallow my "undying love" for him. For long years, we love each other but I come up with a decision. It's totally over!

The best life's lesson that holds me now is this nourishing words which my friend shared me. It says:

"People have different outlooks in love. But whatever those are, there's only a single truth behind everyone's heartache: Love hurts when God knows you deserve someone else."

My reflection about a prayer.

"Do not thing of the few things you did not get after praying. Think of the countless beautiful things God gave without your asking."

I do admit that I often pray to the Lord, asking Him to have me like this and like that, to have me these and those. I pray for Him for many things and various concerns. I ask much blessings for our family, our plans, our health and our future life.

Oftentimes too, I wonder why I haven't receive the ones I've prayed. And it leads now thinking, maybe God doesn't want me to have what I've asked for now or probably, He doesn't want me to have then because it might bring bad to me. But the solid hold of what I always trust is the saying that goes, "Whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it." Actually this saying holds true in most cases of my life.

And the perfect thing i have discovered, for every thing - little or big that you do to the least of your brothers, God will never skip to give you a reward, blessings that you can't even count them. They're numerously unmeasurable. And in everything you do, you will always prosper and if you think it's tough to cross the many impossible ways, you'll be amazed that God lightens them.

That is why, in everything you do, seek His will and He will surely lighten and direct every paths.

Depressed of becoming fat.

It is such a depressing feeling that a person judge me as obese. He said that I look like a mother who already gone through pregnancy and labor. I don't know how anyone would feel my side.

I am single and have not been touch. Because of my work, I eat a lot. I am a freelance writer. I write and write, read and research always. This is not an easy task and thus, every time I loss energy, I boisterously eat and eat. My mind is always at work. As a result, if I don't eat a lot, I feel like good, appropriate words and ideas will not come out. Thus, I fuel myself with lots of food to sustain me and my brain. Plus, my work requires weight because I don't have enough strength to exercise.

I am aware of myself. I am totally aware that I'm becoming fat. But I do make ways to tone my body down. I will surely do it. That is my mission this year!

My written poem - "Hoping"

I am falling in love to a friend that he didn't know. Because of my too much feeling of love, I write this poem personally. It is entitled, "Hoping".

Everytime I encouner faces,
A glimpse of true love resembles,
Everything perfectly flourishing,
This love seem unending.

The eyes both meet,
Your stare is hoping,
My true love creates,
To you I'm liking.

How wonderful to dwell,
This mind always thinking,
How great to spell,
Love both sharing.

I do love you,
Me, just hoping,
I do care for you,
Me, never revealing.

How beautiful to live,
If the reason is you,
How blessed to love,
If I share it with you.

This hopeful soul,
Always wishing,
You don't know,
You, I'm loving.

Just hoping...
Just wishing...
I'm loving...
And saying..."I love you so!"

Being a freelancer.

There are lots of things that I want to say but I couldn't find the right words. Anyway, I am having a huge research of the thesis which I pass to my client. Being a freelance writer is such a tasking job but it is what I love and like. There are more words that I need to grasp and I love the idea of coming it all to me. It feels like it floats soundly well and come in the rush of time. I can be able to write many and in fact, express something that adds up to what I want to appear in my composition.

Lamp and Me

Striking my pen to make stroke of letters and words, I express my written composition with only the lamp and me.

There is not light. The room is dark if there's no lighted lamp. My sisters are already fast asleep. I am just sitting near the chair where I placed the lamp above it.

I could already feel the atmosphere is in great jubilant and celebration of Christmas. Firecrackers loudly sounded like a BIG BANG, radio sounded live and to-the-groove music, children are happily and excitedly chatting, plates are sounding like inviting someone to eat and gobbly dine, smiles scattered everywhere.

But me, the lighted lamp, my two sisters in the solitary room were presently living here. It feels like it's not Christmas. No delicious food on the table, the world is shouting with jubilant but here we are taking this day like one of those ordinary days.

We finish our prayer. We are hoping that this Christmas, though how tranquil we are, bounteous blessings from God is always what we pray.

Do-it-myself Plumbing Job

I do little plumbing job today. Our faucet is having a leak. It's handle has been destroyed which resulted to fast dripping of water. I don't have any other immediate concern except to do the little repair.

Indeed, I was wrong, The faucet needs to be replaced. It takes a lot of job. Instead of mastering enough confidence to do the job I can't resist but called the expert plumber near our state. Luckily, just within 10 minutes, he arrived bringing with him his complete plumbing tools.

I thought plumbing problems are just so easy. After all the water rushly flowing without pause, I was almost trembling in fear. Furthermore, our faucet retires its services. It has been almost 7 years of doing its job. Well, it retires. It needs to be replaced after all.

Now, I'm feeling okay. What I've learned this day is "Never gain much confidence especially when you can't afford to do the task by yourself."

Of course, I initiatively do it by myself because everything for the sake not to spend much is indeed a huge expense.

At least, it's okay and we are all okay now as well!

Women's Worth

I don't feel okay today. I was visited by my period. The first day is actually fast. The blood flowly runs fast. In fact, it is my third time now that I changed napkins this day.

There aer lots of things that women carry about. Just like these natural occurences of every woman's life - menstruation, pregnancy and even serious internal diseases are not an exemption. Women are prone to internal defection and most are victim of cancer.

That is why, I always take good care of my body and health. Times like these that me going through menstruation is inevitably unavoidable. I suffer too much pain. Whatever I do to alleviate the endless pain, there is nothing I can do instead to take the scruciating pain.

Indeed, it is not easy to be a woman. There are numerous roles and responsibilities that a woman possess. She is a child, a daughter, a wife, a mother to her children and being in such a position is worth an essence of everyone's life.

I don't know why I often feel like recalling the worth of a woman especially in times when I'm experiencing monthly menstruation.

About the movie, "My Best Friend's Wedding"

I don't know what to write except that I need to have this written after all. It's just that I'm looking for words to say but I can't hardly say a word. Probably, I'm much affected of the film which I viewed yesterday evening. Julliane (Julia Roberts) feel in love with is bestfriend the day he (Dermont Mulroney) decided to marry someone (Cameron Diaz) else. It has been 39 years that Jullianne hold her feeling about her bestfriend for the fact that her bestfriend after months of travel will come back building both the love they once knew. But it is the other way of story around.

Julliane's immediate bestfriend (Rupert Everett) is her shining armour in her time of great need as she preferred to be ruthless to get the man of his dream before the day of the wedding.

The feeling broke into a real truth of awareness for Michael O'Neal (Dermont Mulroney) while Julliane for the first time broke her silence, expressing what she really feeld for Michael. But it's too late, the wedding is unstoppable. Michael chased Kimmy (Cameron Diaz), Julliane chased Michael, nobody chases Julianne.

No matter how I prefer, wanting the story of defending on Julianne's side but it all ends us as "My Best Friend's Wedding".

Actually, I was moved and touched by this realistic film which resulted me crying.
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Remembering Mama this Christmas

I cried yesterday because I miss Mama. This year's Christmas Day is the 5th year that she is not with us. We never have delicious food on the table and parties to celebrate. There are no more Christmas songs to sing and gifts to receive. There are no more greetings and carolling.

Christmas should be full of fun and excitement. Way back before when my mother is still here with us, she serves us with our favorite food like Spaghetti, "Adobo", Christmas Ham, fruit salad, cakes and pastries, chicken curry, beef steak, juice and many more. She turns on the radio and plays Christmas songs. She sings from the top of her voice as she cooks all our favorite food. She surprisingly gives us gifts as midnight of December comes. It was like the whole month of partying in our house when mother is still alive.

This day, I can feel that Christmas is really near. I don't know if my sister's and I will enjoy or Christmas will just make us cry.

How wonderful if Mama is still here. I miss her everyday especially during Christmas day.

Strumming the guitar.

Music has been a part of my life. In fact, I can't live a day without music. Eversince, I was a kid, my mother raised me, following the footstep of her much gusto with music. As a matter of fact, she's my guru and I'm her apprentice.

I can aptly know how to sing and to play the musical instruments like the piano and the guitar. I have also experienced joining the numerous singing contests form varied venues here in our place.

I was only 3 that my mother discovered my precious talent. She helps me develop and enhance them.

In countless amateur singing contests that I've joined, I win most but I also tasted the feeling of losing. I even cried a lot but mostly I smiled often especially when I win. The cash that I earned from winning the contest serves as a help especially for our meal for the day.

Music travels some positive avenues for my life. I never fear to face people for I have gain lots of confidence. I am determine to pursue what I want. I have the courage to practice even more and to have patience in achieving what I want to reach. In totality, music boosts my interest and disciplines me to face life's challenges with focus and willingness. And all these I owe a lot from my mother who is God's gift for me.

Indeed, my mother has helped a lot of my growth and development. My progress extends its height until now.

But not all tides end up happily. I lose my talents when my mother died. I never care practicing and joining the contest as well. But my perseverance to move on striving is still within me.

My mother's love for me and the way she leads my life into notes of hymns, songs and music paves my way to know the real me.

Now, I rarely sing in public but I do often sing for mother in my heart.

Sad about the new Payperpost.com services

Today, I've checked my payperpost.com account and I was quite not satisfied with their new services because I've experienced receiving lesser opportunities even with my previous account. I am hoping that they will fed me with bigger opportunities because I worry much if I can't be able to provide our daily needs - food, payments for electricity and water supply, medicine for my sister, shelter and clothings.

For the past years, I depend much from the earnings that I got from blogging to support our daily needs. I don't have work for now because I take care of my sister who is having monthly medication and there's no other who could help her but me. While I'm at home, I work blogging, writing honest views, product reviews and experiences from companies who subscribed at payperpost.com.

I couldn't imagine what I could help for my family if I didn't met this paying site that truly nurtures, nourishes and provides our daily needs.

I have been praying and hoping always for bigger opportunities for me to work on.

God has helped me many times.

I have experience a blissful life of earning real cash from blog writing. In fact, it helps me a lot in financing the expenses of the land I just bought last month. Furthermore, the food on the table, the monthly medication of my sister, the house we rent before, the other expenses we have, all these were paid through earning cash in the Internet. I firmly believe that this is God's girft for me to extend my help to others in this way. I couldn't imagine how life would be if this were not meant from God to me.

The Lord is so kind to me. He has given me more of life. I should not worry much because He will always providing me. I thank Him for everything. My dreams are successively achieved and I know more blessings will come for me through the years.

This year stores lot of good oppurtunites for me and I do hope that for the coming years, more and more blessings will come as well.

I always heed to pray to God that I should not worry much about life because He will never cease providing me, loving me.

My dreams are within reach.

I am very grateful that my dreams of owning a house and lot is now within reach. Frankly, a house and lot is what I really wanted for us sisters to live in and spend our lives with after my father prioritize to give our house to her second wife.

It took me lots of months to save and even save more harder from the money that I earn of my job as a freelance writer. I save more and spend less and even until now.

Indeed, it is such a rewarding feeling to get what I wanted especially now that we are living with our own. Little by little, we can fully achieve what we wanted. As for now, I am happy with the realization that my dreams are now within reach.

Sad to lost my friend.

Last November 7 at the very morning, I received a text from my friend named Marvin, telling me to visit him in their house. I didn't pay much attention to his text because I know that he will be fine. Until I was so shocked with sadness that he passed away on the evening of the same day. The bad news seems like a joke. We were communicating on that morning and on that evening he is gone? So horrible hearsay!

I don't want to believe but I was in the point of believing as I received lots of text messages from my classmates and friends, saying he is gone.

I bursted into tears. I regret a lot and I can't even forgive myself on this. I cried and ask for forgiveness, hoping that he will be able to hear me.

I am really feeling in a great lose and regret now. I hope that Marvin will forgive me and may his soul will rest in peace.

A home away from "home".

My sisters (2) and I are staying in a new apartment for a week now. We actually moved last October 17, 2009 (Sunday). The decision of moving is abrupt. Actually, we didn't instantly want to leave "home" but we did. We can't hold on with ourselves of living into a "home: which is not really a home. It is mainly because of my stepmother and my father. We can't cling to keep our silence from living in a "home" where indifference in attitudes prevail. We hardly understand each other. And in order for us to live happily, without any adieu, we decided to move instantly.

That us why, without much sufferance, we decided to stay away from "home". Now, we are happy living with our own.

Problems of lending money to a closed friend.

Today, my friend named Malou came home early to borrow an amount of $1000. I recently received my salary yesterday. I supposed to pay the said amount for the space which I rented. Malou has a serious problem with her schooling that she needs to attain all her financial problems. And so doing, I lend her the money.

We had an agreement that on the third week of November, she should pay the amount or else I will be overly piled with bills, bills and bills. I hope that she will keep her promise.

Due to my merciful heart, I decided to lend the money not minding that I am in the great chaos of paying the rent. Nevertheless, I have another cash on hand probably next week.

It is hard to resist from a little favor of a friend especially that she is more in need of my help. Being hook in this kind of situation is not really a problem. I just make sure to find ways to look for cash.

Neglecting the needs of others, though I have sacrificed my own concern, is quite unreasonable. But at least Malou is going to take the exam now. That what matters to me anyway!